《暮色》有声名著第二五章03(中英对照)

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2011-3-30 10:17

《暮色》有声名著第二五章03(中英对照)

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贝拉将自己流放到了福克斯这个偏僻且终年阴雨的小镇上,她怎么也想不到,就是这个抉择,让她与他相遇在命运的十字路口.眼神交会的那一瞬,彼此之间已经明白,等待他们的,除了幸福的诱惑,还有危险的深渊.互相倾心的两人,在爱情与危险间摆荡,一起度过新鲜而刺激的每一天.

Edward's arms wound around me as the next song started. It was a little up-tempo for slow dancing, but that didn't seem to concern him. I leaned my head against his chest, content.

"Feeling better?" I teased.

"Not really," he said tersely.

"Don't be mad at Billy," I sighed. "He just worries about me for Charlie's sake. It's nothing personal."

"I'm not mad at Billy," he corrected in a clipped voice. "But his son is irritating me."

I pulled back to look at him. His face was very serious.

"Why?"

"First of all, he made me break my promise."

I stared at him in confusion.

He half-smiled. "I promised I wouldn't let go of you tonight," he explained.

"Oh. Well, I forgive you."

"Thanks. But there's something else." Edward frowned.

I waited patiently.

"He called you pretty," he finally continued, his frown deepening. "That's practically an insult, the way you look right now. You're much more than beautiful."

I laughed. "You might be a little biased."

"I don't think that's it. Besides, I have excellent eyesight."

We were twirling again, my feet on his as he held me close.

"So are you going to explain the reason for all of this?" I wondered.

He looked down at me, confused, and I glared meaningfully at the crepe paper.

He considered for a moment, and then changed direction, spinning me through the crowd to the back door of the gym. I caught a glimpse of Jessica and Mike dancing, staring at me curiously. Jessica waved, and I smiled back quickly. Angela was there, too, looking blissfully happy in the arms of little Ben Cheney; she didn't look up from his eyes, a head lower than hers. Lee and Samantha, Lauren, glaring toward us, with Conner; I could name every face that spiraled past me. And then we were outdoors, in the cool, dim light of a fading sunset.

As soon as we were alone, he swung me up into his arms, and carried me across the dark grounds till he reached the bench beneath the shadow of the madrone trees. He sat there, keeping me cradled against his chest. The moon was already up, visible through the gauzy clouds, and his face glowed pale in the white light. His mouth was hard, his eyes troubled.

"The point?" I prompted softly.

He ignored me, staring up at the moon.

"Twilight, again," he murmured. "Another ending. No matter how perfect the day is, it always has to end."

"Some things don't have to end," I muttered through my teeth, instantly tense.

He sighed.

"I brought you to the prom," he said slowly, finally answering my question, "because I don't want you to miss anything. I don't want my presence to take anything away from you, if I can help it. I want you to be human. I want your life to continue as it would have if I'd died in nineteen-eighteen like I should have."

I shuddered at his words, and then shook my head angrily. "In what strange parallel dimension would I ever have gone to prom of my own free will? If you weren't a thousand times stronger than me, I would never have let you get away with this."

He smiled briefly, but it didn't touch his eyes. "It wasn't so bad, you said so yourself."

"That's because I was with you."

We were quiet for a minute; he stared at the moon and I stared at him. I wished there was some way to explain how very uninterested I was in a normal human life.

"Will you tell me something?" he asked, glancing down at me with a slight smile.

"Don't I always?"

"Just promise you'll tell me," he insisted, grinning.

I knew I was going to regret this almost instantly. "Fine."

"You seemed honestly surprised when you figured out that I was taking you here," he began.

"I was," I interjected.

"Exactly," he agreed. "But you must have had some other theory… I'm curious — what did you think I was dressing you up for?"

Yes, instant regret. I pursed my lips, hesitating. "I don't want to tell you."

"You promised," he objected.

"I know."

"What's the problem?"

I knew he thought it was mere embarrassment holding me back. "I think it will make you mad — or sad."

His brows pulled together over his eyes as he thought that through. "I still want to know. Please?"

I sighed. He waited.

"Well… I assumed it was some kind of… occasion. But I didn't think it would be some trite human thing… prom!" I scoffed.

"Human?" he asked flatly. He'd picked up on the key word.

I looked down at my dress, fidgeting with a stray piece of chiffon. He waited in silence.

"Okay," I confessed in a rush. "So I was hoping that you might have changed your mind… that you were going to change me, after all."

A dozen emotions played across his face. Some I recognized: anger… pain… and then he seemed to collect himself and his expression became amused.

"You thought that would be a black tie occasion, did you?" he teased, touching the lapel of his tuxedo jacket.

I scowled to hide my embarrassment. "I don't know how these things work. To me, at least, it seems more rational than prom does." He was still grinning. "It's not funny," I said.

"No, you're right, it's not," he agreed, his smile fading. "I'd rather treat it like a joke, though, than believe you're serious."

"But I am serious."

He sighed deeply. "I know. And you're really that willing?"

The pain was back in his eyes. I bit my lip and nodded.

"So ready for this to be the end," he murmured, almost to himself, "for this to be the twilight of your life, though your life has barely started. You're ready to give up everything."

"It's not the end, it's the beginning," I disagreed under my breath.

"I'm not worth it," he said sadly.

"Do you remember when you told me that I didn't see myself very clearly?" I asked, raising my eyebrows. "You obviously have the same blindness."

"I know what I am."

I sighed.

But his mercurial mood shifted on me. He pursed his lips, and his eyes were probing. He examined my face for a long moment.

"You're ready now, then?" he asked.

"Um." I gulped. "Yes?"

He smiled, and inclined his head slowly until his cold lips brushed against the skin just under the corner of my jaw.

"Right now?" he whispered, his breath blowing cool on my neck. I shivered involuntarily.

"Yes," I whispered, so my voice wouldn't have a chance to break. If he thought I was bluffing, he was going to be disappointed. I'd already made this decision, and I was sure. It didn't matter that my body was rigid as a plank, my hands balled into fists, my breathing erratic…

He chuckled darkly, and leaned away. His face did look disappointed.

"You can't really believe that I would give in so easily," he said with a sour edge to his mocking tone.

"A girl can dream."

His eyebrows rose. "Is that what you dream about? Being a monster?"

"Not exactly," I said, frowning at his word choice. Monster, indeed. "Mostly I dream about being with you forever."

His expression changed, softened and saddened by the subtle ache in my voice.

"Bella." His fingers lightly traced the shape of my lips. "I will stay with you — isn't that enough?"

I smiled under his fingertips. "Enough for now."

He frowned at my tenacity. No one was going to surrender tonight. He exhaled, and the sound was practically a growl.

I touched his face. "Look," I said. "I love you more than everything else in the world combined. Isn't that enough?"

"Yes, it is enough," he answered, smiling. "Enough for forever."

And he leaned down to press his cold lips once more to my throat.

当另一首舞曲开始的时候,爱德华的胳膊环绕着我。这对慢舞来说节奏有点快,但这似乎并没有难倒他。我把头靠在他胸口,感到心满意足。

“感觉好些了?“我揶揄着。

“完全没有。“他简单地答道。

“别对比利抓狂。“我叹了口气。“他只是因为查理的缘故才担心我。这不是什么人身攻击。“

“我没对比利抓狂。“他用一种紧绷的声音更正到。“但他的儿子很让我恼怒。“

我退回去看着他。他的神情非常严肃。

“为什么?“

“首先,他让我打破了我的承诺。“

我困惑地盯着他。

他半笑不笑地说:“我保证过,我今晚不会放开你的。“他解释道。
“哦。好吧,我原谅你。“

“谢谢。但还有别的一些事情。“爱德华皱起眉。

我耐心地等待着。

“他说你漂亮。“他最终继续说道,他的眉头皱得更深了。“对你现在的样子来说,这实在是一种侮辱。你远甚于美丽。“

我大笑起来。“你有偏见。“

“我不这样认为。另外,我有卓越的视力。“

我们又开始转圈了,我的脚踩上了他的脚,他把我抱得更紧了。

“那么,你打算解释这一切的原因了吗?“我问道。

他低下头,困惑地看着我,我意味深长地瞥了一眼那些卷绉纸。

他思考了片刻,然后改变了方向,带着我转着圈穿过人群,舞到体育馆的后门那里。我一眼看见了正在跳舞的杰西卡和迈克。他们都好奇地盯着我。杰西卡挥了挥手,我飞快地报以一笑。安吉拉也在那里,看上去一脸幸福地被小个子本?切尼抱在怀里。她的眼睛简直没法从他的目光里移开,他比她低了一个头。李和萨曼塔,劳伦,她正瞪着我,和科纳在一起。我能叫出旋转着从我面前经过的每一张脸。然后我们走出了门外,走到了正在消逝的日落的清冷的,黯淡的光线中。

一等到我们独处,他立刻把我抱在怀里,然后抱着我穿过黑暗的场地,一直走到笼罩在草莓树的阴影下的一张长凳处。他坐在那里。依然把我环抱在他胸前。月亮已经升起来了,透过薄纱般的云层隐约可见,他的脸在皎洁的月光下变得苍白起来。他的唇是那么坚硬,他的眼睛里写满了烦恼。

“重点是?“我柔和地催促着。

他不去理会我,抬起头盯着月亮。

“又是暮色。“他喃喃低语着。“又一次终结。不管这一天多么美好,它终究会结束的。“

“有些事不必结束。“我立刻紧张起来,咬紧牙关,喃喃低语着。

他叹了口气。

“我带你去参加舞会。“他慢慢地说道,最终回答了我的问题。“因为我不想要让你错过任何事情。我不想因为我的出现让你的生命有所缺憾,只要我能做到。我想要你当人类。我希望你的人生继续下去,如果我没有死在十九岁上,我的人生也会这样继续下去。“

我因为他的话而颤抖起来,然后愤怒地摇着头。“在怎样奇怪的平行空间里我才会出于自己的意愿跑去参加舞会呢?如果你不是一千倍地强于我,我永远都不会让你侥幸做到这一点的。“

他简单地笑了笑,但笑意并没有渗入他的眼底。“这没那么糟,你自己说的。“

“那是因为我和你在一起。“

我们安静了一分钟。他盯着月亮,而我盯着他。我希望我能找到办法来解释为什么我对正常人类的生命是那么的不感兴趣。
“你想要告诉我什么吗?“他问道,低下头看着我,淡淡地笑着。

“我不总是这样做吗?“

“你只要保证你会告诉我。“他坚持着,咧嘴一笑。

我知道我会立刻后悔的。“很好。“

“当你想出来我要把你带到这里来的时候,你看上去毫不掩饰自己的惊讶。“他开始了。

“我确实是。“我插嘴道。

“确实。“他赞同道。“但你一定还有别的一些理论……我很好奇——你以为我让你穿上盛装是为了什么?“

是的,我立刻就后悔了。我撅起嘴,踌躇着。“我不想告诉你。“

“你保证过的。“他反对道。

“我知道。“

“这有什么问题吗?“

我知道,他认为是尴尬让我退缩的。“我猜这一定会让你发疯的——或者悲伤。“

当他思索着这个想法的时候,他的额头皱在了一起。“我还是想要知道。求你了?“

我叹了口气。他等待着。

“嗯……我假定这是某种……场合。但我不认为那是某种平庸的人类活动……舞会!“嘲弄道。

“人类?“他冷淡地问道。他抓住了关键词。

我低下头看着自己的裙子,烦躁不安地抓起一片迷路的薄纱。他沉默地等待着。

“好吧。“我一吐为快。“我希望你也许已经改变心意了……你终于打算转变我了。“

许多情绪在他脸上一闪而过。有些我能辨认出来:愤怒……痛苦……然后他似乎控制住了自己,然后他的表情变得有趣起来。

“你以为这是某种隆重的场合,对吗?“他揶揄着,抚摩着他晚礼服外套的衣领。

我绷起脸,想要掩饰住自己的窘迫。“我不知道这些事情是怎么发生的。至少,对我来说,这比舞会要合理得多。“他依然咧嘴笑着。“这一点儿也不有趣。“我说道。

“不,你是对的,这一点儿也不有趣。“他赞同道,他的笑容消失了。“不过,与其相信你是认真的,我更愿意把这当成一个笑话。“

“但我是认真的。“

他深深地叹息着。“我知道。你真的那么情愿吗?“

痛苦的神情又回到了他的眼中。我咬住唇,点了点头。

“已经准备好结束了,“他喃喃低语着,几乎是在自言自语。“把这当成了你人生中的暮色,尽管你的人生才刚刚开始。你已经准备好了放弃一切。“

“这不是结束,这只是开始。“我低声表示不同意。

“我不值得你这样做。“他悲伤地说着。

“你还记得你告诉过我,我没有很清楚地看待自己吗?“我扬起眉毛,问道。“你显然有着同样的盲目。“

“我知道自己是什么。“

我叹了口气。

但他敏捷易变的心绪因我而改变了。他撅起唇,他的眼睛在刺探着。他久久地审视着我的脸。

“那么,你现在已经准备好了?“他问道。

“呃,“我吞咽了一下。“是的?“

他微笑着,然后慢慢地埋下头,直到他冰冷的唇轻轻扫过我颌角之下的肌肤。

“就是现在?“他耳语着,他冰冷的气息吹拂着我的肌肤。我无意识地颤抖起来。

“是的。“我耳语着,这样我的声音就没有机会破音了。如果他认为我只是在虚张声势,那他就要失望了。我确实已经做出了决定,而且我很确定。没关系的,尽管我的身体僵硬得像块木板,我的手蜷握成了拳头,我的呼吸很不稳定……

他阴暗地轻笑着,然后把身子移开了。他的神情真的很失望。

“你不应该相信我会如此轻易地作出让步。“他说着,嘲弄的语气里有一丝酸涩的味道。

“女孩可以做梦。“

他的眉毛扬起来。“这就是你梦寐以求的?成为一个怪物?“

“当然不是。“我说着,因为他所选择的词语而皱起了眉。怪物,的确。“我梦想得更多的是永远和你在一起。“

他的神情改变了,变得柔和起来,也因为我声音里那种微微的痛苦而悲伤起来。

“贝拉,“他的手指轻轻勾勒着我的唇形。“我会和你在一起——这还不够吗?“

我在他的指尖下微笑着。“现在是足够了。“

他因为我的固执而皱起眉。今晚没有人会让步。他呼了一口气,那声音听起来像是一声货真价实的咆哮。

我轻抚着他的脸。“看,“我说道。“我爱你,胜过这世界上的一切加起来的总和。这还不够吗?“

“是的,这足够了。“他微笑着,答道。“永永远远,都足够了。“

然后他俯下身来,再次把他冰冷的唇压到我的喉咙上。